An Escapade

Learning is practice. This a miracle. This sentence also connotes heavy responsibility for the learner as well as the instructor. Self-reflection facilitates their learning and put what they have learn into practice. Do you agree?

As a course instructor, this is my thought: Last year when I returned home for a couple of months, my dean assigned me with a teaching assignment. So I picked up my previously assigned course, and teaching sharing it with a senior lecturer. When I taught my students, 74 of them, I observed something interesting. Something that caught me off guard that left me speechless. I found that most of them were unable to reflect their own learning. They were unable to describe what they’ve learnt and what difficulties they faced in their learning assignment (at that time I taught them Method Demonstration), and they were not able to propose better strategies on how they could do better!

At first, I suspected that they were experiencing language barrier, could this be? and then I told them, ‘write your reflection in points, and I’m not going to grade your grammar etc because I’m looking for your key reflections in learning!’ Some of them manage to articulate their authentic learning experience but most of them ended copy and paste somebody’s idea. As an educator, what was going on that time crushed my heart, I felt sad. However, I am not giving up! I am going to resolve this issue. In a couple of months, I’m going to full take up this course for real, this is a whole lot of responsibility.

When I’m done with all the requirements for my study program, I plan to work on this issue. There is a need for me to search for what could possibly be the barriers that learners couldn’t perform self-reflection on their learning? What are the ways that I could help to resolve their performance issue? And then I closely work with the learners to identify which are the best teaching instructions that effectively facilitate their learning experience and doing self-reflection. From my past experience, learners were amazing. These learners are definitely the source of knowledge for instructors in learning on how to improve their delivery skills. In order to that, I have learnt to dump my ego in the trash can, and I am going to do this again, again and again.

30 minutes writing commitment is done. { smile }

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No Problem Without Solution except Death

An Escapade

Yes. Now I need to escape Ames for a while. Where to? To the wilderness.

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What is Calamities?

I am sharing a piece of my story on how one can make a choice to live the life when calamities fall on them. Is a choice really!

Are Calamities Bad? Before today,  I believe calamities or trials are bad, very bad impact on my life. They are killing me, killing me. Softly. Especially the hardest one … or the most difficult yet to come? [ sho sho sho go away evil thoughts! think positive please … my angel whispering to my heart, MasyaAllah La haulawaquata illa billa, Tabarakallah ]  When I think from that perspective, I don’t think I could continue living … how could not I become devastated when there is no light of hope? or the slightest light that leads to hope?

Why did I choose to change the perspective on Calamities? After sometimes, debating with my inner self, I started to alter the perspective on how to view all the disasters that occurred in my life. Because after all, in anything that I do, I have choices to make. I can choose to continue to suffer in this short life if I choose that killing perspective–calamities are evil. The biggest problem with accepting that view, my brain slowly [or is it my heart? Or my soul? to be accurate?] shutdown to choices that I could make. Opportunities do not exist in this view. I know it sounds crazy to you. The heavier the calamities, the faster my brain or my soul shut itself down, closing all my views to doors, shutting the lights of help and hope as well as the light of promising future. And then I become numb. That how one’s perspective or worldview toward life are a critical savior to a happy life.

The Wake-Up Call! After endless struggles of two years, my soul woke up. That was after my soul was floating to a far far away place. I felt I was not able to touch the ground of reality anymore. I had an empty brain for the future. I lived only at the moment. Everyday. Only at the moment. One day at a time. This ‘soul-floating’ went on for months. Months. Almost two years.  I have tried to explain what was going on with myself to all my close friends. None except one friend who understood what was going with me.  She explained to me spiritually. She has helped me out from the distance while I was in Ames and she was in my home country. We are separated by thousands of miles away. Her arguments make sense. She suggested several strategies for me to do daily. Eventually, in a month, I was able to connect with my soul, and then I connect my soul to reality and my brain to the future. It was an unbelievable experience, a painful one that drained my soul. However, a priceless one!

Being A Grateful Person Somehow! However, I’m grateful that Allah has chosen me to experience that, otherwise, I will not understand how a person falls into depression and coming out from it.  I said to myself never being a judgemental person to anyone surrounding me. When I was at my low point of life, many many people were judgmental to my condition. I was unable to explain my conditions according to the language that is understood by many. I agree with wise people say, if you want to get to know your real friends or kind souls, wait when you’re at the lowest. At this very lowest point, you look up on them, and you see who they are at heart!

The New Perspective on Calamities. Since that enlightenment from my friend, I change my perspective towards what it means to me the “Calamities.” Simply put, calamities, are a direct coaching and training from Allah Azzawajalla to engage me as a life long learner.  Calamities are only temporary epochs in my life.  The content is with a new knowledge, new feelings of humility or gratitude, and a new skill that are beneficial for my future adventure. All lessons from Allah are orchestrated into the experiential learning, and all of them are problem-based learning. I will not die because of the calamities. Only death has no solution, so surely calamities have solutions. It’s a matter of time. Right, time heals. And also it’s a matter of strategies and solutions that I use. These life lessons are not only meant to update my knowledge and wisdom on something but also they strengthen my spirituality with Allah Subhanawata’alla in connection to humility and gratitude feelings and life pursuits.

Stay Alert. Allah will not terminate HIS lesson until  I comprehend it in the way HE wants me to be.

Ya Allah. May Allah grants me the knowledge of understanding and practice what I have learned. Amiin Ya Allah, Amiin Ya Rabb. Barakallah fi kum.

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Embrace Your Positive Perspective to Walk through the Calamities. Everything will be alright.