Gratitude Journal

Today I decided that everyday, I will strive to write at least one thing that crack a smile during the day. Practice gratitude, is one of the ways to always become an optimist person. It sure is logic, positive inputs will recreate positive outcomes!

Al-Akram,  Your Lord is the Most Generous

Gratitude Sept, 19-2019

Alhamdulillah, today, I’m thankful for …

I have friends who wanted my companionship for Hot Spring Picnic near by. Unfortunately, I was unable to join them today.

I have a polite class rep student, Ilman who seek a change of schedule for MPU class. Even though we couldn’t make any changes, we have negotiated in good manners.

Note: How to do layering of text on photo with Ps

Overcoming Fear

My heart gives endless excuses not to pick up the SOC assignment again.

Simply because of fear to undergo the same burden of a strong emotion of a loser. Everytime I return to the same page, I feel like a blind person walking straight ramming the wall. Hit hard. This happens repetitiously. This lowers my self-esteem and deteriorates my optimism as well as my focus.

Haze covers your vision. How to wipe out the vision?

How to deal with overcoming fear? Do you have any ideas? Care to share with me? Share your ideas here and let me experiment them. Thank you !



This one word that causes me endless tears, tons of stupidity and despair and years of loneliness. That one word.


I need perseverance!

Yes, I need that word!


I recognize pursuing this stuff is an extremely difficult, to be under the mountains of words and words and words. It takes a toll to my vibrant life energy.

But still, I need to be persistence and patient to stay focus.

I strongly believe that God will help me to get through this. I’m strongly believe that God has answered my prayers of seven years today. Yes, TODAY.

Because of the perseverance, TODAY is the day!!!

It has been 7 years my brain is being imprisoned in this dark, dump and scary dungeon. Nevertheless, I’m reminding myself that seven years is nothing in comparison to an hour or two that I expected to complete this draft. Keep believing. I can reap the success later, InsyaAllah. Stay firm footing.

I see the vision of success. I see it. I can see it with my naked eyes.

Even though I’m tired I can’t quit. But I can take a rest.

Stay focus!


And then return to it. Again and again. Till I finally ending it with a period.


Perserverance. Stay Firm with perserverance.

Soul Diseases

The disease that knowledge bring is arrogance, and the disease that worship bring is showing off

by Ibnu Taimiyyah

By nature Human is plagued with many diseases, spanning from the physiological, to metaphysics until the unseen, the soul one. The first two diseases can be possibly detected through various medical methods. Nevertheless the third one, the soul disease is challenging to be detected.

Ibnu Taimiyyah recommended two indicators to identify when one (or even ourselves) is being plagued with the disease resulted from knowledge and worship. If one is enriched with knowledge while he/she is not purifying the heart, then arrogance will conquers him/her. This can be displayed through their arrogance behavior. On the other hand, if he/she ‘dedicated’ him/herself to God through endless worships, then he/she has the tendency showing off all his/her worships to others. This could be suggesting that their worship is not authentically for God but only for people to see and gain worldly benefits.

In a nutshell, we have to always alert and take caution with our intention and the state of our soul in pursuing the journey to be a learned person and devout soul to God. Both have challenges in the pursuit of our authentic goals. Always purify the soul and then let the purified soul to be the compass to navigate and orienting the direction.

Jika kamu dikecewakan …

Jika kamu dikecewakan datangilah Allah Azawajalla segera. Hanya Allah lah sahaja yang berkuasa menghilangkannya. Kerana Allah lah sahaja yang ada penawarnya.

Jangan tunggu. Jangan berlengah-lengah. Jangan terus tinggal dalam gua kekecewaanmu. Sebaliknya, sempurnakanlah perasaan kecewamu itu dengan kembali kepada Allah Azawajalla. Pulangkanlah kekecewaan mu itu pada penciptanya, Allah Azawajalla. Bagaimana? Munajat lah dengan Allah dalam solat-solatmu dan doa-doamu terutamanya satu pertiga malam. Dan juga basahkan lidah dan bibirmu dengar zikrullah. Allah mendengar rintihan hatimu dan tidak akan ada satupun akan terlepas dan disia-siakanNYA.

Kamu tidak boleh terus kecewa dan bersedih dengan sesuatu atau seseorang penyebab kepada kekecewaan dan kesedihanmu. Mengapa? Awas! Ia akan mengundang kecelakaan besar terhadap dirimu! Bagaimana? Perasaanmu itu akan terus membara membara dan membesar dengan maraknya. Dan akhirnya, hatimu yang kecewa dan sedih itu akan beransur-ansur beralih kepada kebencian! Akibatnya dirimu akan selalu hidup diselubungi amarah ini. Seluruh energimu akan dimagnetkan sehingga tidak tersisapun kepada amarah ini. Tidakkah ini satu kehidupan yang sia-sia?

Mintalah Allah menjaga dirimu dan seluruh kehidupanmu sejak kamu diciptakan Allah dalam rahim ibumu, sehingga ketika ini, dan sehinggalah hari Kiamat. Mintalah pertolongan dan kekuatan dari Allah untuk tinggalkan kekecewaan dan kesedihanmu serta segala punca-puncanya itu. Dan secepat mungkin terus berfikir semuanya itu hanya ujian semata-mata dari Allah Ta’ala. Jadi dengan rahmat dan redha Allah maka akan terpadamlah perasaan kecewa, kesedihan mahupun kemarahan itu dalam dirimu, dan akhirnya perlahan-lahan ketenangan akan menyelinap ke dalam hatimu seterusnya memenuhi ruangan hatimu dan akhirnya bertahta di hatimu. InsyaAllah.

Berusahalah! Kerana dirimu sangat berharga. Setiap detik masa kehidupan yang berlalu tidak mungkin boleh dikembalikan semula.

Subhanallah. Allahuakbar. Alhamdulillah

Bacaan tambahan: Meraih ketenangan hati yang hakiki


Fear does not prevent death, it prevents life

by Naquib Mahfouz

Naquib words of wisdom tells you that you have to face the fear in you. The more you fear something, the more you need to deal with it. Why dealing it upfront is crucial? Simply, fear prevents you to pursue life. You need to overcome fear in order to progress in life.

If you did make attempts to deal with your fear and failed many times, do not despair. Try again, and again until you landed with the one or several that kills your fear permanently.

I believe it’s not the solution that makes you stronger to face fear. However, unconsciously the skills that you’ve developed in the process of striving to overcome your fear is the gold! That harnessed skills are the one that are making you a stronger person. So keep it going!

Read More and Different Contents

How I can think differently from others? I mean how I can enrich my ideas, knowledge and understanding on something and take different path from others?

Read! Yes that answer is R.E.A.D.!

Read books or read quality materials with substance. And more specifically, read books or materials different from others. Since the content of I read serves as fuel to my thoughts, this serves that path for thoughts. If I read same books like others, my idea and thoughts are going to be the same like others. In addition reading the common books or materials, I need to explore other good books/materials (rare materials) to pave different paths or alternatives. Just like the saying of Haruka Murakami:

If you only read the books that everyone else is reading, you only think what everyone else is thinking!

Perbaiki Akhlak ku Ya Allah

أَعُوْذُ بِاللَّهِ مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ الرَّجِيمِِْ

“Aku berlindung kepada Allah dari syaitan yang terkutuk”

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang

اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

سُبْحَانَ اللّهِ  – والْحَمْدُللّهِ –  وَ لا اِلهَ اِلَّا اللّهُ  – وَ اللّهُ اَكْبَرُلاَ حَوْلَ وَلاَ قُوَّةَ إِلاَّ بالله العلي العظيم

Maha Suci Allah, segala puji bagi Allah, tidak ada tuhan yang berhak disembah kecuali Allah, dan Allah Maha Besar Tiada daya dan tiada kekuatan melainkan dengan pertolongan Allah Yang Maha Tinggi dan Maha Agung

Ya Allah, Ya Rabb, sesungguhnya aku ini insan yang keras, maka lunakkanlah aku

Ya Allah, Ya Rabb, sesungguhnya aku ini insan yang lemah, maka kuatkanlah aku

Ya Allah, Ya Rabb, sesungguhnya aku ini insan yang lemah, maka kuatkanlah aku

Ya Allah, Ya Rabb, sesungguhnya aku ini insan yang lemah, maka kuatkanlah aku

Ya Allah, Ya Rabb, sesungguhnya aku ini insan yang bakhil, maka jadikanlah aku insan yang dermawan

اَللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى أَزْوَاجِهِ وَذُرِّيَّتِهِ، كَمَا صَلَّيْتَ عَلَى آلِ إِبْرَاهِيْمَ، وَبَارِكْ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى أَزْوَاجِهِ وَذُرِّيَّتِهِ، كَمَا بَارَكْتَ عَلَى آلِ إِبْرَاهِيْمَ إِنَّكَ حَمِيْدُ مَجِيْدٌ

“Ya Allah berikanlah rahmat kepada Muhammad, kepada para istrinya dan anak keturunannya sebagaimana Engkau telah memberikan rahmat kepada keluarga Ibrahim; dan berikanlah karunia kepada Muhammad kepada para istrinya dan anak keturunannya sebagaimana Engkau telah memberikan karunia kepada keluarga Ibrahim, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Terpuji lagi Maha Agung”

سُبْحَانَكَ اللَّهُمَّ وَبِحَمْدِكَ أَشْهَدُ أَنْ لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ أَنْتَ أَسْتَغْفِرُكَ وَأَتُوبُ إِلَيْكَ

“Maha Suci Engkau Ya Allah & segala puji bagi-Mu, aku bersaksi bahwa tiada Tuhan selain Engkau, aku memohon ampunan dan bertaubat pada-Mu.”

آمِيْن يَا رَبَّ العَالَمِيْنَ

” Kabulkanlah Wahai Ya Rabb semesta Alam “

Bersamaku ada Siapa?

Ada manusia terus menerus menzalimi dan menakut-nakutkanmu dengan berat …

Perlu aku takut?

Perlu aku bersedih?

Kalla, Kalla (a word in arabic) ~ TIDAK! TIDAK

Tidak, jangan takut!

Tidak, La Tahzan~ jangan bersedih!

Tidak! Kerana bersamaku ada Rabb Allah! Allah, Tuhanku akan menolong aku! Allah, Tuhanku akan memenangkan aku!

Allahlah tempat ku sandarkan segala-gala kebutuhanku.

Allahuakhbar, SubhanaAllah, Alhamdulillahirabbilalamin.